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Je suis fatigué

Only in this case, I'm not so much tired as "suffering from fatigue."

It took me until last night, when reading an article in Arthritis Today with the word "fatigue" in its headline, to realize that that is, in fact, the case. The article is actually pretty good at explaining how fatigue isn't the same as being tired, although it doesn't explain how slow one feels, or how heavy or hard everything seems when you are fatigued. And either that article or the one on pain explains that pain leads to fatigue, and fatigue leads to you minding your pain levels more, so you can appreciate how that particular snake-eating-its-own-tail thing spins. I think this may be the online version of the article, though it has some differences.)\

The fact that I didn't realize I was fatigued helps show how sneaky fatigue is, when one has rheumatoid arthritis (90% of people with RA suffer fatigue fairly often, even if the rest of their symptoms are under control, says the article) and also fibromyalgia (nearly all people with fibromyalgia suffer from fatigue, and it's even less predictable than with RA).

Sign me up!

Or, rather, I wish not to be signed up, but it is, in fact, what's going on with me at this point in time. It is entirely understandable, as there has been quite a bit going on around here of late. Not enough to tire a healthy person, but enough to knock an immune-suppressed person down. Just not "down flat", which would have made it plain immediately that I was fatigued.

Instead, I wake up sort of muzzy-headed every morning, and then have a couple hours where I'm coherent and even have some energy, and then end up quasi-vegetative by evening. Fun!

Must write a poem about how fatigue sneaks up and throws a blanket over your head before you know it, and you can't figure out why it's suddenly dark.

But first, a nap.

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Mar. 31st, 2015 09:37 pm (UTC)
damn fatigue!
THIS does explain a lot because I was having trouble figuring it out when I saw it just as tired. And HEAVY is the perfect adjective. That's what it sometimes feels like, like cement in your head, bricks on your brain and chains on your drive.

I JUST struggled through that mass of heavy weight at the end of what "only should be an hour nap" because that's the proper plan in all this—don't sleep too much coz then you won't be on a normal schedule. Well, I've stopped feeling normal for quite some time.

But yeah, heavy, heavy, heavy fatigue, Snake, go eat your cement tail!

Look forward to your poem.
Apr. 2nd, 2015 01:55 pm (UTC)
Re: damn fatigue!
Glad to have been of service. Sort of. It really is the damnedest thing how it sneaks up on you.
Mar. 31st, 2015 10:21 pm (UTC)
It's amazing how often fatigue goes hand in hand with an autoimmune condition. It took me years to figure out when I was feeling "that way" an acute episode of ulcerative colitis was probably on its way and that the only thing to do was to take care of myself until first the UC and then the fatigue went away.

Sorry you are dealing with this, but I can't wait to see what you come up with for a poem.
Apr. 2nd, 2015 02:00 pm (UTC)
Thanks, Kathy. The poem is in early stages, but we shall see.
Apr. 1st, 2015 01:25 pm (UTC)
Hope your fatigue doesn't keep you down. Happy Birthday!
Apr. 2nd, 2015 02:00 pm (UTC)
Thank you!
Apr. 2nd, 2015 08:11 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry. It is so hard to fight through fatigue, although when I get that way it's usually due to depression and/or stress. I remember a college roommate of mine who had RA and from time to time it would just knock her flat and she'd have to stay in bed all day.

Here's sending positive energy your way. :)
Apr. 5th, 2015 01:29 am (UTC)
Depression and stress tend to run with autoimmune stuff, too, though I am usually only bothered by the latter. Still, it all is just so overwhelming, sometimes, isn't it?
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